aku ingin mencintai..buka lah pintu hati mu finy..

Ya Allah,berikan aku semangat,berikan aku kekuatan. 

kembali single. bukan aku suka2 nak single. tapi aku perlukan ruang dan masa tuk mengenali diri nya.. kita dah x sefahaman. aku cuba tuk memahami kau. siapa diri kau sebenar. aku nak menerima diri kau seadanya dan sifat kau sebenar.. sebab tu aku perlukan masa..

masa yang agak panjang dan lama. tapi,aku berharap satu hari nanti TUHAN buka pintu hati aku tuk kembali menyayangi kau. macam awal2 kenal. :) sweet kan. aku sedar tu semua.aku terfikir tu semua.. tapi,maafkan aku. aku betul2 belum bersedia. sebelum trlambat,aku tarik diri awal2. bukan nak mnjauhkan diri,just nak kan ketenangan. 

aku just rasa aku belum sesuai tuk dicintai dan disayangi. plus kau berbeza sangat2 dgn aku. kita jrang brsependapat. aku ckp A kau ckp B. aku keras kepala,kau x. aku boleh nk bukak hati aku tuk kau. tp mmndgkan kita asyk btgkar,kau asyk fikir negatif pasal aku,trlampau2 care psal aku. buatkan aku rimas. rimas bukan bmksud aku x suka. just,aku bukan lah org yg ingin kan perhatian. wlaupun phatian yg kau beri tu mmg ckup buat aku. tp bukan itu yg aku mahu kan. 

aku inginkan kebebasan. aku inginkan ruang yg luas tuk aku bergerak. tuk aku befikir ttg msa depan ku. kadang2,kau layan aku macam liltle baby.. n aku xboleh org layan aku mcm tu.. aku rasa aku mcm x matang lgi.. aku xleh nk bfikir sndri.aku rasa trkurung. aku rasa aku terbatas. aku xnak jdi diri aku yg mcm tu. aku rasa terseksa.. dan tersepit. 

mungkin kau x faham diri aku cmne, n sbb tu lah kita jdi cmni. aku xnak letakkn kesalahan kt kau..n bukan salah apa pn.. just, lets we chill n cool.. if diteruskan jgk hubungan ni,mmg xkn mnjadi. trust me.. kita follow flow masing2. sebab we rr totally diff. im soryy dear :')

21 May 2011

bye KL,hyeee JB. almost a year x pegi JB.
rasa rindu tu memang tersangat2.
happy,suka,penat,smua ada.

thanks a lot for mak,abah,atok,nenek,kak cyg,akk cun,abg,
sbb mngalu2kan jugak kedatangan finy.
segan plak rasanya.
dah lama x pegi sana.
tgok2 mmg ramai sedara mara dtg.
lagi lah segan.

ada yg baru kenal.
oke thanks sbb korg msuk air.
hahahaa.
x boleh nak lupa.
plus time tgok korg dok basoh pggan.

heee.now mula mrindui JB kembali.
just 2 hari je g sana..
xpe lah,nnti finy dtg lgi oke.

pic will be upload soon.
t aku tag oke.
mission complete.haha!
LOL.

<3

flood

floody arounds the corner.ergh. shit. tapi tu semalam pnye cite lah kan.haha. yeah. banjir kat langat smalam.haishh. aku pun x brani nak drive.air bnjir naik.and aku risau kereta je. even tggi,tp,pergh. cannot go.haha. almost two hours jgk lah tggu air surut.. nak xnak kena redah jgk.

balik hantar eka dlu.. then balik. aku punye gigil.jgn ckp lah kan. kete depan bawak slow. mmg kena maki hamun dgn aku. dah ah banjir.air naik,dia bleh gelak2 borak dgn org skeliling.gila tension.aku dah cuak kete aku berasap.. ingt temperature naik..rpnye asap kete depan.agaga.cuak2..

agak jauh jgk nak redah banjir tu.. kete dah bau hangit.aku pun lenjan je ahh.. apa boleh buat. air nak surut tah bila.haha. last2,lepas jgk.selamat.kereta pn alhamdulillah okay :)

attention...

i h a t e m y s e l f

..............just a word

boleh ke macam ni? perlu ke semua ni? patut ke diteruskan ataupun cukuplah setakat ini? aku pun tak tau apa yang aku nak. apa aku nak dari dia. apa yang aku tak suka. apa yang membuat aku jadi macam ni. penat dah berfikir. bertambah jerawat ada lah.hikss.

im sick to think bout it. aku ready ke tak ready? hati aku memang tuk dia? jiwa aku? sayang aku? cinta aku? memang tuk dia atau sebaliknya? am i loving someone? hm. but who? aku pun x tau. aku pun x sure. my dad cakap, maybe hati aku tertutup. 

betul ke? aku nak jadi macam dulu.aku nak sayangkan dia macam mana aku sayangkan ex aku dulu. macam mana aku sayang dia macam nak gila. and aku tak boleh nak hidup tanpa dia. aku nak macam tu. aku nak dia ada di sisi aku sentiasa. tengok muka dia. aku nak macam tu..tapi...

kenapa sekarang aku dah tak boleh nak buat tu semua. memang tak dinafikan, M buat aku bahagia. happy. ceria. buat aku sayang dia. memang aku sayangkan dia. aku tak nak hilang dia. but the same time,aku susah nak love dia more than he loves me.. 

kadang rasa nak jauh je dari dia. macam sekarng ni. punca semua dari aku. so kalau hubungan aku renggang,semua sebab aku.mybe. hmm. idk what to do what to say more. just.. hmm. im sorry. 

perjalanan hidup ni masih panjang. apa pun boleh berubah and di ubah. aku mengharapkan hati aku penuh dengan cinta.dan bukan hanya kasih sayang. for now,malas nak fikir sangat. biarlah masa berlalu. hidup diteruskan seperti biasa. chill saje. :)

aku..

tak suka kena paksa

aku..

tak suka kena bebel

aku..

tak suka kena suruh

aku..

tak suka orang kabut sangat

aku..

tak suka orang explain banyak kali

aku..

tak suka orang banyak cakap

aku..

tak suka orang pesan kerap kali

so..

jangan buat benda yang aku cukup

tak suka

cakap sekali boleh kan?

jangan asyik tanya benda

sama je

akibat nyeee..

aku..

cepat bosan

cepat marah

cepat tension

cepat tawar hati

cepat benci

cepat menyampah

cepat nak maki

terima kasih

:)

Love is missing someone whenever you’re apart,

but somehow feeling warm inside because you’re close in heart

It takes a minute to like someone, and hour to love someone, but to forget someone takes a life time.

my sis :)

wedding of the year.hee. my sis.. ida maisara. miss her. ni pic kawin dia hari tu. sorry kak x dapat datang..kena kerja. hm. dia ni akak ex bf aku. hee. dia paling oke,and aku sayang dia as my kakak. <3 u kak. hehehe. cant wait to see ur baby.. wah.mesti cute mcm danny :) hope pkawinan akk kekal hingga akhir hayat.amin.

Joseph Vincent - If You Stay (Official Music Video)

:D

Im hurting her again.

its all ma fault?

dun treat me like im liltle baby girl.

please.

im not BABY.

please.

put trust on me.

im sick fight with u ..

fight about nothing!

*sigh

HAIR DAMAGE!

WANNA CUT MY HAIR

sobs sobs :'(

Deadmau5 :)

Kat DeLuna - Dancing Tonight ft. Fo Onassis

Deadmau5 - Sunway Lagoon

time deadmau masuk. almost 10 0'clock jgk lah dia bru nk sepinnnn.

erghh!

DEADMAU5-Live @ Sunway Surf Beach

oke.ni cm kurenggg skit haha

dkmat! i want my picture

wearing this head.

OMG. its awasome.

thanks fr strangers

coz gimme a chance snap

pic with tis fuckin head!!!

<3 <3

Great.Nice.Fun.

:)

:')

:')

:')

Im stuck

i couldnt say anything bout you

but

i noe that

u always with me

thanks..

thanks a lot..

for...

being..

MY FREN'S

thanks..

coz being a goodlistener for me

thanks..

for been in my life

until now.

There's One things

i want is..

Do not leave me..

coz i still need you.

care me..

Hug me..

Loves me..

Hold me..

as a...

GIRL - FREN'S

Coz

I always need U my Friend

:')

I noe u will read myblog

tis is fer you

Ahmad Cat Saufi :')

SORRY...

I'M TOO EGO FOR YOU..

MM :'(

thank God because you give me another chance to feel and express a speech today to the mother's day of my mom today. Mom's, thank you for raising me to this day. i cant pay your service is not with money that I earned. even if you raise me with a life filled with simplicity, but as a little child I never even questioned it to you. mother, I'm sorry for making you hurt a lot with my temperament is .. I have made you upset, sad, hurt and crying. forgive me mom .. mom, thank you for raising me survive till our time. despite all this, no worries about your lil daughter okay?. thank you mom. iloveyou!! you're the best ever mom's in this world.

im a goodlistener?

do I? a good listener and loyal? is not like arrogant, but I'm always in use as a listener. do not think it is among my friends and family. I guess when I really needed to be a place for them to express themselves. I never even felt a bit tired of listening and giving advice to those who need me. although, I'm very grateful because I often needed .. I lend my shoulder to cry you express all that implied. I never complain at all. as a friend and a child, I will listen. all expressions of faith and your secrets, I will keep. and let it be a secret between us. Thank you for believing me :)

My window...dikala kebosanan... :)

ni dekstop background aku. kt PC aku lah kan. x lawa pn kan. tp aku ske. sbb NICE. hey hey cita rasa aku. suka aku lah. haha. :)

Dady!!! i want this car!!

oke aku dah start berangan..

nak kereta ni.

comel kan.

smlm makan port biasa

mamak lah

then

kete ni park depan aku

teros fall in LOVE

wlaupun x dpt nk beli buat masa ni

:'(

bila lah nk dapat

sedih nyerrr

bie..

buy this car for me??

i really want it..!!

:'(

sabar sabar..

harga pun cantik jugak.

heeeeeee :')

Nur Atika Azmira

babe...lately ni kite sgt closed. just dlu time skola xde closed mcmni.kan? :) yelah masa tu msing2 ada partner. kau dgn yana.aku dgn gemok tu! haha.. em.. now bru aku mula kenal sape eyka sbnarnye.. n aku tau kau bkn kwn jenis lupakan kawn. n kite sama..kan? i trust u n u need to trust me also. u can share anythg to me.. n thanks coz always be with me.. time susah n senang.. thanks babe.. also to my frens yg lain. :)

Love Bread and Dreams

Cite ni pasal buat roti

hehe

drama gak ni

msuk keja je kena QC cite ni

okay

tiap 1 disc QC 4 hours

not bad

ngeee

ade lah pasal love2 skit

tp bnyk cite psal family dorang

pic laki atas ni nma dia

KIM TAK GU

comel kan dia

haha

dia mengingatkan aku kt someone ni

mata,gigi,gelak,

mmg sebiji

haha

ape pn kim tak gu sangat comel

siap add dia kt FB. (malu nyer)

dlu xminat tgok cite korea bgai

skrg nah.melayannnn

haha

:)

Dong Yi

kt bwah tu soundtrack drama Dong Yi ni.

comel kan actress dia.

geram je.

heeeeeeee..

tp cite ni best

even tgok x trsusun :(

tp scene2 yg sgt menarik

aku pn x bosan tgok

sumpah best

cite psal zaman dolu2

maharaja permaisuri

hiksss

xtau lak laki tu hensem

sbb dlm cite tu npk tua

haha

tp best best

buat aku x henti2 tgok

bukan QC tp mghayati drama tu

haha

<3

Fast and Furious 5

oke

aku x tengok lagi

tp takat tgok trailer je

bf aku dah p tgok

(sumpah jelez)

sape soh

ajak g tgok xnk

padan muka aku

haha

xpe2

aku akn pegi tgk jgk

even xtau lgi bila

erghhh

:)

Jang Na-Ra - Cheonaejia (Dong Yi Original Soundtrack)

DON'T EVER SAID THAT YOU LOVE ME,BUT CANT LOVE ME MORE!

PLEASE.. DON'T LET ME KNOW THAT YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH ME,

AFTER 3YEARS MORE AND NOW???

DON'T SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME BUT U CAN'T BE MINE TILL WHENEVER?!

DON'T SAY THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW BOUT YOU EVEN ITS JUST A BIT KNOWLEDGE BOUT YOU!

DON'T SAY THAT YOU WANT TO LEAVING JUST BECAUSE YOU HAS MADE SOME RECOGNITION TO ME!!!!!!

Im going to smile and make you think Im happy, Im going to laugh, so you dont see me cry, Im going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me, Im going to smile but i wont losing you anymore.n i cant stop thinking of you.PLEASE dont dissapear just because u just said that u fall in love with me,coz i need you :'(

ni wall FB aku tok kau! kau tau x?kau baca x? ergh.. nape bru skrg?? nape bru skrg ni aku dgr smua tu.. kau tau kan?aku dah puas ckp dgn kau sbelum ni.. hati aku x tenang.. xpenah tenang.. benci kau!!!! benci sgt!! kau buat aku kecewa... kau buat aku happy!kau buat aku teringatkan diri kau! tp tgok lah apa kau dah buat??kau hancurkan smua nya.. kau nk hilangkan diri?? for what?tok buat aku tros kecewa??????

sampai hati kau..!!!!! kau tau kan aku xleh hilang kau.. even kau ckp aku xkenal diri kau 100%,tp aku kenal hati kau cmne.. aku cuba nk faham dri kau.. lepas apa yg kau ckp smlm tu,kau nk aku bdiam diri??nk aku just membabi buta je??xmungkin!!!!! erghh.. tlong lah fahamm... congrate lah sbb kau buat aku hilang arah skrg ni.. hati x menentu.. trfikirkan smua tu.. perlu ke kau tggalkan aku lpas apa dah jdi antara kita?????kau fikirkan lah... almost four years............. :'(